Today is a day of letting go. In just over 12 hours, I was to be boarding a plane for Nepal. I cancelled the flight just 2 hours ago. I’ve known for weeks that I would be canceling the trip but hadn’t really accepted that fact until last week. Even so, it took me until today to actually cancel my ticket.
Ever since my trip to Nepal last year, I have held onto the experience tightly creating a strong emotional attachment. It is time to let go of that attachment and know that I can always return at another time. Nepal will still be there. Right now, it is more important for me to work out my own personal issues.
As part of the“Shed Project,” I am shedding emotional baggage. The short story is that I’m buying a house with my husband and tomorrow we need to sign loan documents for the house. I am buying the house because it is what’s best for my marriage. I’d rather not own a house but it is something my husband needs and I know he deserves that. Therefore, I am dealing my own emotions about it and doing my best to let go of the anger and sadness I feel for having to cancel my trip.
There is much more to the story but it is a personal one. Today I’m making the commitment to let go and shed the emotional baggage I’ve been carrying around. I will put away my own selfishness and do my best to accept what is happening here in the present moment.
I will end this with a stanza from Stephen Mitchell’s, Bhagavad Gita, A New Translation.
“He whose mind is untroubled
by any misfortune, whose craving
for pleasures has disappeared,
who is free from greed, fear, anger,
who is unattached to all things,
who neither grieves nor rejoices
if good or if bad things happen –
that man is a man of firm wisdom.”